Blogging is Hard

I never know what to write, so usually I resort to either not writing or writing a rambling of my thoughts. Which usually has to do with a very few list of things haha.

Today at lunch I had a conversation with a friend and we were talking about Abortion and I made the comment that they will never make it illegal and that is ok with me. Let me explain.

I am pro-life, I think that killing a life, either born or not, your choice or not, is a life. A precious life in God's sight. And should NOT be killed because it will interfere with your life, thats what kids do :) It what makes them amazing, if it wasn't hard everyone (speaking to the guys here haha) would do it, its the hard that makes it great. However the term abortion, and abortion as the government sees it is a good medical procedure used to remove a fetus from the womb, now the original propose was for when babies had miscarried, and were being expelled naturally (gross and pain basically) this explosion could happen at any time, and if something went wrong it could get infected and in fact kill the woman. This procedure happens often, and is a good procedure that without it many women (including my mom) could've died from complications after miscarriage.

With that said let me remind you that I am very much pro-life, however I do not think abortion should be illegal no exceptions. I think SOMETHING should be done to stop women from getting an abortion just because they made a choice to have sex outside of marriage, and that choice resulted in a baby. I think abortion when used wrongly is murder, but I do not hold to the fact that abortion is murder no exceptions.

Random thought that came to me while typing, you never really hear about women wanting to get an abortion when they're married.

Sunday Letdown

Its sunday evening.... possibly my least favourite part of the week.

I stayed in Manhattan this weekend, I had a good, VERY relaxing possibly too relaxing of a weekend. I went to the homecoming parade, then went to Pizza Hut with some friends, then went to Where the Wild Things Are with my cousin and his roommate and roommates fiance. Good movie by the way, sad, and very deep for a kids movie, but it represented the book well, it was worth $7 :) Yesterday I watched KSU win, did laundry, then watched KU lose, then went out to BWW with my cousin, then went to studio, then watched MU lose, it was a good Saturday of nothing but football and sleep pretty much. Today I went to Grace, listened to a very encouraging sermon, then came home scrounged for lunch and sat down to watch the Chiefs, I didn't watch long though because we carved pumpkins this afternoon. I must say Stacy, Kyla and I did an awesome job on Smurfette :) For the rest of the day I've watched movies, and done homework. Now its 7:15 on Sunday night and I'm not happy about that haha.

But I really can't complain.. Monday's aren't bad days at all, actually this semester Monday is my second favourite day of the work week, following Friday of course!!

Well, I hope everyone has a wonderful Monday :) Might won't be too bad... and lets ALL hope this week goes by quickly ;)

Emotions

I figured out what was wrong with me earlier this week... you don't wanna know haha... but it made me think. How do I control my emotions when what I'm feeling is real. Its just heightened my the rush of hormones in my system. I need to figure this out because I'm gonna have to deal with it for the rest of my life. I know I can control how I treat others but how do I keep from having a mental break down every month, what I felt was REAL, I was very sad, very stressed, and very not ok. But nothing was really THAT wrong. Not to merit how I reacted. And the good news, this whole hormone rollercoaster only gets worse...

Conclusion... being female STINKS. Can I be a guy now...

Fall?

Today has felt like a dream. I didn't sleep well at all, I actually woke up an hour before my alarm crying from stress of all I have to do this week. So I got up and just got ready for the day, headed to class, hardly able to breathe cause crying while walking to class is dumb. Made it through class, grabbed dashers on the way home did some work, then went back to bed. I slept for an hour and it felt AMAZING!! I woke up feeling refreshed and ready to take on the week. Earlier this morning I read in James and the verse that says "All who are suffereing. Pray!" jumped out at me. So I thought well I'm not really SUFFERING in the sense that this book is talking about but I'm suffering in my own little world haha. So I prayed and it really helped, I felt a peace that I haven't felt in awhile. That even though I have a lot to do, and I feel like its over my head that I will sit down and plow through it and while difficult I will survive.

To make my life even more fantastic it is 70 degrees and sunny outside!!! :) Oh I love fall, I never really came to this conclusion until this year, because really I hate fall. haha. It is the beginning of school, its hard to get out of the summer routine, and all you have to look forward to is winter (UGH). But fall is just beautiful, even though it only lasts two weeks anymore. And I love Thanksgiving and Christmas, so Fall is now one of my favourite seasons.

Good thing its beautiful out cause I left my coat in KC. God does answer prayer :) even the small ones!

Everyone calls you amazing

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p15MZXnsWpY&feature=related

I pinch myself
Sometimes to make sure I'm not in a dream
That's how it seems

I close my eyes and breathe in the sweetest moments I've ever known
It feels like home

And here I am
I want to be your everything
There you are
Turning winter into spring

And everyone that sees you
Always wants to know you
And everyone that knows you
Always has a smile
You're a standing ovation
After years of waiting
For a chance to finally shine
Everyone calls you amazing
Yeahhhh
I just call you mine

I fall apart
And just a word from you
Somehow seems to fix
Whatever's wrong
Ohh
You reach into the weakest moments and remind me that I'm strong
You gotta know
I'd be a fool not to see or even worse to forget
That you're more than I deserve

Cause everyone that sees you
Always wants to know you
And everyone that knows you
Always has a smile
You're a standing ovation
After years of waiting
For a chance to finally shine
Everyone calls you amazing
I just call you mine

Nothing makes sense when you're not here
As if my whole world disappears
Without you what's the point of it

Cause everyone that sees you
Always wants to know you
And everyone that knows you
Always has a smile
You're the dream that I've been chasing
After years of waiting
For a chance to finally shine
Everyone calls you amazing
I just call you mine
Everyone calls you amazing
I just call you mine

This DEFINES my best friend/