Break My Plans

I often surf youtube for songs while I'm doing homework, chatting on facebook, or just plain bored. Yesterday I was bemoaning the fact that over two years ago my parents sat us kids and asked us if we would be ok with moving... I said I would be ok with it. WHAT WAS I THINKING?!?! Ugh, I woke up mad at myself for agreeing to this horrible idea. I really was in a funk about it all day. But I stumbled onto this song http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g14QP6R1iAY and it really convicted me. I said yes to my parents because it was a great opportunity for my dad, it all came down to that, and God's plans are bigger than mine. I still don't know why he had our family move, and I still desperately miss my beautiful home in Grandview, my OWN bed and bedroom. I miss everything about home. I loved the sunshine that seemed to fill the house at all times of the day. I really wanna go home.... Oh boy here I go again.

Anyways, Lord break my plans. Turn my heart to your will for my life. And help me to feel at home wherever I am because I am in your arms. Honestly there is no place on this earth that should be my home. My home is in heaven. Oh now I'm REALLY home sick!

Love

On August 2, 2008 my Grandma passed away. All of her kids her husband of 60 (give or take) years, and most of her grandkids around her. It didn't sink in that she was really gone until the next summer when the whole family went down to Florida to remember her and spend time together. It was weird, I think she was the glue of our family. She had a great sense of humor, was the BEST cook, enjoyed card games (she was always telling me to breast my cards), and she loved her family and Grandpa with EVERYTHING in her. I was listening to random music last night and I stumbled onto the song Lollipop by the Chordettes, this was Grandmas favourite song to clog to, my Grandpa's favourite part was where she would shake her bottom :) I was told Grandpa that I missed Grandma and him, and she wrote back with "I miss her every moment of the day, Honey." This just breaks my heart! My Grandpa is not a believer, he is a part of the UU church in Florida. This church basically believes in science and almost mocks all religions. My Grandpa loves it. I can't imagine losing my boyfriend let alone a spouse, best friend, constant companion, and love of my life of 60 years all in a moment. Oh the pain he must be going through, he loved her SO much. He met her while working in a ice-cream shop, he saw her and fell in love right away, but she was dating another boy. I don't exactly know how all that went down but I know they got married with a short time of meeting. They were so in love. If only Grandpa could know how much MORE Jesus loves him.

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I was convicted of my lack of quite time with my Jesus. Every time I am in His word I am refreshed, convicted, encouraged, and shown His love for me. Why do I not do this every day? I pray constantly but I don't think I listen enough. I discovered Thessolonians recently, I don't think I've ever really delved into those books... Well I'm going to now. If anyone wants to join me that would awesome... but really if you could keep me accountable to at least SOME time in His word every day I would appreciate it. Thanks!