Update on life...

So I'm waiting for my clothes to dry, listening to music, and just basking in the glow of the feeling of having solidly passing Studio (no small feat), a clean and well decorated house (although still the Stowe house haha), and the best part... I KEPT MY SCHOLARSHIP... meaning I can stay at K-State.

Now to beast next semester. I know I can do it! But its still very scary, this semester almost kicked my rear end. I will have zero life during the week and will most likely have to spend the weekends catching up or staying caught up on Studio and other homework. Which is ok I guess, I love Designing... I just get tired of not having a life. I hear these are the best days of your life. So far they have been pretty good... but we'll see about the "best". I definitely like Sophomore year better than Freshman year!

Well, hopefully my clothes are dry now... I found out tonight that our drier is run by gas, I didn't know they made gas driers but I found it pretty cool :) Well I'm driving to KC tomorrow for my surprise from Cam, I'm trying not to think too much about it haha. I'm excited! Right now I'm exhausted and the thought of driving 4 hours in the morning makes me want to go to bed NOW. So goodnight all four of you :)

P.S. I don't really care how well written this is, so if you care, get over it :)

Sing Gloria

It is CHRISTMASTIME! Christ came to earth to DIE for you and me! What a JOY to have a sacrifice for our sin. I am just in such a good mood right now!

Break My Plans

I often surf youtube for songs while I'm doing homework, chatting on facebook, or just plain bored. Yesterday I was bemoaning the fact that over two years ago my parents sat us kids and asked us if we would be ok with moving... I said I would be ok with it. WHAT WAS I THINKING?!?! Ugh, I woke up mad at myself for agreeing to this horrible idea. I really was in a funk about it all day. But I stumbled onto this song http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g14QP6R1iAY and it really convicted me. I said yes to my parents because it was a great opportunity for my dad, it all came down to that, and God's plans are bigger than mine. I still don't know why he had our family move, and I still desperately miss my beautiful home in Grandview, my OWN bed and bedroom. I miss everything about home. I loved the sunshine that seemed to fill the house at all times of the day. I really wanna go home.... Oh boy here I go again.

Anyways, Lord break my plans. Turn my heart to your will for my life. And help me to feel at home wherever I am because I am in your arms. Honestly there is no place on this earth that should be my home. My home is in heaven. Oh now I'm REALLY home sick!

Love

On August 2, 2008 my Grandma passed away. All of her kids her husband of 60 (give or take) years, and most of her grandkids around her. It didn't sink in that she was really gone until the next summer when the whole family went down to Florida to remember her and spend time together. It was weird, I think she was the glue of our family. She had a great sense of humor, was the BEST cook, enjoyed card games (she was always telling me to breast my cards), and she loved her family and Grandpa with EVERYTHING in her. I was listening to random music last night and I stumbled onto the song Lollipop by the Chordettes, this was Grandmas favourite song to clog to, my Grandpa's favourite part was where she would shake her bottom :) I was told Grandpa that I missed Grandma and him, and she wrote back with "I miss her every moment of the day, Honey." This just breaks my heart! My Grandpa is not a believer, he is a part of the UU church in Florida. This church basically believes in science and almost mocks all religions. My Grandpa loves it. I can't imagine losing my boyfriend let alone a spouse, best friend, constant companion, and love of my life of 60 years all in a moment. Oh the pain he must be going through, he loved her SO much. He met her while working in a ice-cream shop, he saw her and fell in love right away, but she was dating another boy. I don't exactly know how all that went down but I know they got married with a short time of meeting. They were so in love. If only Grandpa could know how much MORE Jesus loves him.

New Post

I was convicted of my lack of quite time with my Jesus. Every time I am in His word I am refreshed, convicted, encouraged, and shown His love for me. Why do I not do this every day? I pray constantly but I don't think I listen enough. I discovered Thessolonians recently, I don't think I've ever really delved into those books... Well I'm going to now. If anyone wants to join me that would awesome... but really if you could keep me accountable to at least SOME time in His word every day I would appreciate it. Thanks!

Blogging is Hard

I never know what to write, so usually I resort to either not writing or writing a rambling of my thoughts. Which usually has to do with a very few list of things haha.

Today at lunch I had a conversation with a friend and we were talking about Abortion and I made the comment that they will never make it illegal and that is ok with me. Let me explain.

I am pro-life, I think that killing a life, either born or not, your choice or not, is a life. A precious life in God's sight. And should NOT be killed because it will interfere with your life, thats what kids do :) It what makes them amazing, if it wasn't hard everyone (speaking to the guys here haha) would do it, its the hard that makes it great. However the term abortion, and abortion as the government sees it is a good medical procedure used to remove a fetus from the womb, now the original propose was for when babies had miscarried, and were being expelled naturally (gross and pain basically) this explosion could happen at any time, and if something went wrong it could get infected and in fact kill the woman. This procedure happens often, and is a good procedure that without it many women (including my mom) could've died from complications after miscarriage.

With that said let me remind you that I am very much pro-life, however I do not think abortion should be illegal no exceptions. I think SOMETHING should be done to stop women from getting an abortion just because they made a choice to have sex outside of marriage, and that choice resulted in a baby. I think abortion when used wrongly is murder, but I do not hold to the fact that abortion is murder no exceptions.

Random thought that came to me while typing, you never really hear about women wanting to get an abortion when they're married.

Sunday Letdown

Its sunday evening.... possibly my least favourite part of the week.

I stayed in Manhattan this weekend, I had a good, VERY relaxing possibly too relaxing of a weekend. I went to the homecoming parade, then went to Pizza Hut with some friends, then went to Where the Wild Things Are with my cousin and his roommate and roommates fiance. Good movie by the way, sad, and very deep for a kids movie, but it represented the book well, it was worth $7 :) Yesterday I watched KSU win, did laundry, then watched KU lose, then went out to BWW with my cousin, then went to studio, then watched MU lose, it was a good Saturday of nothing but football and sleep pretty much. Today I went to Grace, listened to a very encouraging sermon, then came home scrounged for lunch and sat down to watch the Chiefs, I didn't watch long though because we carved pumpkins this afternoon. I must say Stacy, Kyla and I did an awesome job on Smurfette :) For the rest of the day I've watched movies, and done homework. Now its 7:15 on Sunday night and I'm not happy about that haha.

But I really can't complain.. Monday's aren't bad days at all, actually this semester Monday is my second favourite day of the work week, following Friday of course!!

Well, I hope everyone has a wonderful Monday :) Might won't be too bad... and lets ALL hope this week goes by quickly ;)