Valentines Day

I love this day because it is

• An excuse to spend time with just that special person
• A day to express your love to those around you
• A day to eat candy... without any guilt
• A day of flowers

I hate this day because

• There is so much pressure to get something
• Valentines are cheesy
• Its really hard to think of something to buy
• I would much rather just spend time with him than get something just because its Valentines day
• I can't keep secrets to save my life :) well thats not entirely true but I always seem to give away my best gift ideas just a little bit too soon...
  

Confession.

I'm not perfect. AH shocker I know haha. But no, I fail. Daily.

It gets really old really fast. I am thankful for forgivness and understanding of my parents, my siblings, my friends, and most all my God.

But I wonder sometimes... why do I continue to do these failings? Now, somethings I am able to tackle for a while anyways (1 month and counting, MH) while other things I can't. Or I just don't want to. Maybe a little bit of both.

I know I can't do anything without Christ and the Holy Spirit. But what about the "grey" areas? Things that SEEM wrong, but don't FEEL wrong. Things that I want to do but would never tell anyone about.

What about lying? Something we all do, but shouldn't. Something I am working on.

Or laziness (case in point, writing this when I should be putting dinner away)

Or the bigger things too. Sometimes I wonder how I can be a follower of Christ and still struggle with such pervasive sins. I confess them to God, and ask forgiveness, and sometimes resist. But there are just so many times that I have failed.

Lord, forgive me.

Update again

CAM IS COMING HERE TOMORROW!

Yeah, I'm a little bit excited :) Gonna watch some football... hang out with the cousins... just be together... its gonna be grand!

I like this layout more, seems mature? maybe I don't know. Mostly I just like the picture!

Man I'm a lucky chick

And here's why:

• I'm loved my the creator of the universe
• The best parents in the world gave birth to me
• I am friends with my siblings and I love them all very much
• I have a best friend named Cameron who I can and do tell everything too, oh and I happen to be dating him too :)... 1 year and 9 months and 2 days
• I have amazing friends, Melinda, Hannah, Stacy, Krista, and many others
  
• I'm a Wildcat!
• My professors are great, although I can't stand a few the majority stand out as great teachers and I know that each one in their own way will shape my education to be the best it can be
• I have a pretty good brain, although I don't always use it
• This blog has bullet points which make my lame excuse for an update seem that much cooler
• I can read! Did you know that less than half of all the females in the world can read?
• I own a Bible, my very own love letter for Jesus
• I am a middle class daughter for parents who are still married and crazy in love born in America going to college with my own car and a job. Basically I'm in the 1% of the population on this planet
• I can *almost* do a full pull-up, I'm 20lbs closer :) Thats a lot right?
• I don't struggle with my weight
• I'm don't really have self image issues, although I don't see myself the way Cam does

What a responsibility I have...

P.S. Melinda. I updated :) YOUR TURN!

Goals

I have several goals for this semester

• To grow in my walk and relationship with my Lord and Savior
  
• Get a 4.0
  
• Work out consistently and to eat healthier
• Consequently, drink less pop
• By the end of the semester be able to do a full pull-up
• Make close friendships here at Smurth
• Be a light for Christ to those around me
• Get to know Cam better, aka spend as much time as possible with him!
• Find a good paying job for the summer
• Get a tan :)
• Have fun!!
• Be the best I can be at all I put my mind too

Please pray for me as some of these are going to be tough...

P.S. Like my new layout? :) GO STATE!

Update on life...

So I'm waiting for my clothes to dry, listening to music, and just basking in the glow of the feeling of having solidly passing Studio (no small feat), a clean and well decorated house (although still the Stowe house haha), and the best part... I KEPT MY SCHOLARSHIP... meaning I can stay at K-State.

Now to beast next semester. I know I can do it! But its still very scary, this semester almost kicked my rear end. I will have zero life during the week and will most likely have to spend the weekends catching up or staying caught up on Studio and other homework. Which is ok I guess, I love Designing... I just get tired of not having a life. I hear these are the best days of your life. So far they have been pretty good... but we'll see about the "best". I definitely like Sophomore year better than Freshman year!

Well, hopefully my clothes are dry now... I found out tonight that our drier is run by gas, I didn't know they made gas driers but I found it pretty cool :) Well I'm driving to KC tomorrow for my surprise from Cam, I'm trying not to think too much about it haha. I'm excited! Right now I'm exhausted and the thought of driving 4 hours in the morning makes me want to go to bed NOW. So goodnight all four of you :)

P.S. I don't really care how well written this is, so if you care, get over it :)

Sing Gloria

It is CHRISTMASTIME! Christ came to earth to DIE for you and me! What a JOY to have a sacrifice for our sin. I am just in such a good mood right now!